getting to the point

It's been some time since i wrote my last blog. I would have been quicker save for some technical snags and my affinity for weddings ( that reminds me i should probably run a complete separate blog abt great indian weddings).

Anyways getting to the point that is supposed to be feelings. To be honest when i started writing the blog i was pretty confident i had lots to write but once i have got onto this i feel much less sure, hopefully it would make some sense.

I have always been intrigued by how you seem to like some people for no special reason. It is one of my cousin's birthday today and i have no hesitation in declaring that she is the most adorable person i know. When i think of it ,seems a bit strange. She is neither the smartest nor the prettiest. She has been good to me through childhood but so have been others. But somehow she has always been very special.

Being the reasonable man i am, i tried to figure it out and probably came up with reasons which seemed to justify my feelings towards her but as i can now see, they need not be rational at all. That i think is the most interesting part about feelings. Language, actions and emotions need to have some reason, a cause and effect or some kind of basic rules governing response. So when someone says 'thank you' , you respond with 'ur welcome'. When someone hits you, you hit them back ( or stick the other part of ur body out, Gandhian logic). When someone breaks your heart, you feel sorry and depressed.

I would also like to differentiate feelings from emotions, so that my further posts make some sense. While the modern language uses terms with frivolous ease. I being my pre-historic self will try and crystallize them for now. Emotion is a disturbance(with no negative connotations) in your mental space, it is differentiated from feelings on account of it's temporary nature. So u might love, hate or be angry at someone at some point of time in ur life but there is a certain way they make u feel, that feeling doesn't go away, if at all as you grow and understand urself, so do the feelings understand themselves, they become clearer and simpler.

So i have had this nice feeling about my sister(cousin, i like calling her sister) since childhood, and as i have grown i have realised that i can trust her with anything. Can always hope and rely on her understanding me and can express anything and everything, however stupid it maybe. I don't know what u exactly call this but that i guess is the beauty of 'feelings' they can only be told in bits and pieces. The whole thing though can just  be experienced, it can never ever be explained.

So well to sum it up the 2 things true abt feelings:

1. They are irrational, and are not a response but a natural generation
2. Feelings are indescribable, u can only express parts of them like a jigsaw puzzle

Hope to add through further posts....